I wanna stop feeling guilty to my parents

How should I start the story, life seemed just right 5 years ago. Until, I freely jumped from a stabil monthly pay, a boring stuck life-I jumped without a parachute-to a wonderful teenage dream, back to home and thought to make parents happy (well maybe this one very contrary, because the other youngsters are about to start their adventure to get out of home).

That time, I was young, fearless, really nothing to lose, mixed up with missing my family a lot (after 9 years seperated to study from high school-bachelor), the village and my other excuses 'to study abroad'. 

Yeah, everything seems okay, but the truth is here where the long sailing begins. The real up and down from the wave of life, really unimaginable ever before, like literally this is the first time when my sweet dreams have not come true!

However, I won't give up and I wanna stop feeling guilty to my parents, it is enough! I am so done with my own selfishness! I will start again again and again until I make it! avigenamastu.